Hi to all of you, old and new friends! I am writing at the beginning of the week, seduced by the power of Monday’s propositions, after a weekend spent among the mental fogginess induced by PMS, sinusitis, a heavy migraine and the drugs to cure them all.
Saturday night I was lazily speaking to my husband about the dissatisfaction with my daily fitness routine when I had a sudden revelation: enough!. My fitness routine is just enough.
The results I achieved with my body are just enough to me. It’s stupid and it’s pointless to keep on fighting. I don’t want to stop exercising and I am still going to reconsider and improve my fitness routine from time to time, but I need to end the war with my body. This war has been going on since I was a little girl. It started with hate and refusal (thanks to bullying), it continued through prize and punishments (at the doors of bulimia), it has evolved in my not always healthy eating and exercising routine. It has to stop.
I am a 39 years old woman with few grey hair and a lot more of brown. I am a little taller than one metre and a half and I weigh around 50 kilogrammes. I have an hourglass shaped body with a BMI around 20.60 and almost perfect measurements: 87-64-93. It’s enough.
I am fine with what I have. I want to enjoy my body. Town centre shops, I am coming!
Since I decide that my efforts to be fit and have a body I could find admirable are enough, I can save more mental space for what it’s not. On the same night of chat with my husband, I realised that my commitment to this blog and even more to my creative space, The Charming Cookie Jar, is not enough. I must write more. I must post more. I must illustrate more. I have to progress with my novella at a faster pace. It’s no use struggling to have more followers on empty blogs. If what I really want to do is write, then I have to write more. What I was doing it’s not enough.
And you? What do you think it’s enough? Are you enduring a long pointless battle with some aspect of your body or yourself that you can’t accept? Are you holding back from the real battle you feel you should fight? In the meanwhile, thank you for your precious time and have a terrific Monday!