I wanted to improve myself, I wanted to make some changes, and all of this, simply because I wanted to be happier and more satisfied with myself. Now that some changes have been made, I notice that I’m starting to like things that don’t belong to the tastes of my old self. Yet, today I found this quote in a video essay about Blade Runner 2049:
“The self is not physical, it’s symbolic. It is “in” the body but it is rarely completely integrated with the body. A person is where he believes himself to be; or, more technically, the body is an object in the field of the self. It is one of the things we inhabit.”
It is a quote from Ernest Becker, The Denial of Death.
The self is symbolic, it is something that each of us builds and nurtures with meaning, moment after moment. If I change my patterns of behavior, my usual self feels lost.